starting with faith, ending with faith

I have been meaning to start a blog or something of the sorts for awhile... I just never got around to it. but now i think would be a better time than any to kick the procrastination bucket and just do it. so here it goes.


can i just say how amazing God is? good - cause i said it. He's amazing!  i have watched Him do so many things the past few months. some things i honestly want to say i questioned Him about... and I mean a lot. but through the season of questioning (that one i brought onto myself i might add) brought a new season of faith - a whole new level of faith that runs deep... so deep that sometimes i don't think that there is an end. uncovering this newfound faith started about 5 months ago. let me explain. 


in august of 2010, Daddy (God) told me to not go back to college. i fought a little at first because I had my own plans of getting my children's ministry degree and start my own children's ministry. but i peacefully relinquished my own ambitions to see what He had for me. my faith was building. i was talking to a dear friend of mine as he was helping me process the decision i just made. i had no idea what i was going to do. during this time of my life, i was working (with God's help of course) trying to rebuild a lot of things that had been broken due to the enemy's schemes. so a lot of things were unknown & a bit scary. my faith in that situation was grown the most. God told me what to do and even though it didn't make the least bit of logical sense, i did it and then prayed things would be okay. the second i decided i wasn't going back to school, my friends word was this: "now that you have decided for sure, i have an opportunity that i know that you would love. how would you like to go overseas and do an internship with a missions organization called operation mobilization?" it was as if God was answering many of my prayers through my friend and i undoubtedly believe he was & He did. 


flashforward.... it is now december 28, and i leave in exactly one month for south africa to do missions discipleship training for 6 months. and i have never felt so sure about something in my life. God blessed and kissed this mission trip from the second it spilled out of my friends mouth 5 months ago. of course i had to have even more faith to believe that this is what He wanted for me. and i had to have faith that He would take care of finances and logistics. as of now, all finances are covered. THANK YOU JESUS! i have almost everything i need materialistic wise. my heart is ready. my mind is almost ready... haha. :) i know God is going to do some pretty amazing things down in south africa while i'm there. i am so ready to be sent out and love on his people the way He has called us to do. i can't wait to learn more about who He is and what He's all about. i can't wait to be the donkey Jesus rides in on so that He can bring restoration, healing, understanding, & unfailing love to the south africans. faith...what a beautiful thing.